hello
we fight, and we have fun while doing it.
fighting for the lost, and what belongs to us.
Stand.
July 28, 2009
What happens when you feel that you are at your threshold, the tipping point, where any second you feel like breaking?
When your efforts have yet to show any result…
When the things you do just don’t seem right… Or they may even feel right but yet not be…
Don’t lose heart.
In the past, it was fighting PO. It’s easy fighting by myself. There’s no such thing as consequence too big or price too high. If I wanted to beat it, I could. There was no need for wisdom or planning - winning was a matter of sheer will. If my will was stronger than my mum’s, I won. I guess that’s why I didn’t mind being locked out of the house, or having my things confiscated… It was my battle, my fight, and no one else would get hurt even if I lost it all. I could fail my studies all I want, it’s my future to behold. It’s easy being a lone warrior. It’s easy to be a renegade.
Not anymore.
Now, when I stand before God, I stand for more than one person. My actions now affect them. I live for them now. I’m learning how to make the unpopular decisions. I’m learning how to accept the consequences of my words and actions. What happens when one of the guys makes the call to challenge his PO after I talk to him? His battle becomes mine as well. It’s his battle for sure, but I’m in it. Perhaps that’s why I was never a fan of sports, I couldn’t understand the idea of being totally in the game even though I’m not there.
Things change.
Pastor and Charleston went for the Real Man conference in Aussie. Sometimes, I wonder what it takes to be a real man. I think I have a glimpse now… Responsibility - Living for your family, and not just yourself. Everything has to hold in a balance, your balance. God’s balance.
I cannot afford to lose heart. I cannot afford to lose purity. I cannot afford to lose focus.
The weekend has been a crazy one. So many things happened, I was tested, and so were the guys. Some of them did well, some of them not so. I did well in some, not so in some as well. We don’t choose our challenges… They just come. When they do, and you’re under immense pressure, what do you do? Do you break? Do you run? Do you fight it?
Frankly, the call is ours to make. How we get to our destination is up to us. We just need to get there. It’s easy getting there yourself, it’s harder bringing everyone along with you. Harder, but not impossible.
Learning to be like a Shepherd.
We can only breakthrough, there’s no other option.
I used to be self-absorbed in my thinking. Then I shut off my inner thoughts because it was doing me harm. Now I’ll need to harness that thinking and keep it in control. To be intellectual yet spiritual. I need to start thinking again, because if I don’t, others won’t grow. It’s like a chinese gung-fu movie where you pick up a weapon that needs to be tamed - failure to do so will only bring disaster.
My insides have changed, and so has my writing.
Pastor Lia’s sermon came with divine timing - for everyone. If you were not there, you should have been - but that’s another story for me to explain in my thoughts to myself.
So this is me, working on my brain and spirituality at 3.40am in the morning. Till next time… More insight. Watch; pray.
This is me, attempting to find myself. This is me, for the first time, touching my destiny so clearly. This is me, Changing myself before I get to Change my world. This is me, living for You, and you. I haven’t lived life until now, and this writing is just a reminder to me:
I stand for a generation to come.
The Fellowship of the Unashamed by Dr. Bob Moorehead
July 27, 2009
I am a part of the fellowship of the Unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit
Power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has
been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won’t look back, let up, slow
down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense,
and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight
walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions,
mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised,
regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.
My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my
way is rough, my companions few, my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear.
I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the
presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the
pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I won’t give up, back up, let up, or shut up until I’ve preached up, prayed
up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ. I am a
disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until He returns, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He comes.
And when He comes to get His own, He will have no problem recognizing me. My colors will be clear for “I am not ashamed of the Gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes..” (Romans 1:16)
1021
July 7, 2009
We brokethrough a 1000!!!
This was beyond my dreams, to be part of something so big. It’s still so awesome that sometimes I don’t even know how privileged I am… Keep running the race with Pastors and Leaders! (:
B&C Zone Stayover.
Memorable because Troy Marshall prophesied over every single one of us… And Charleston preached the best ever.
What’s on my mind is still how we gave! As Klemon puts it: “from nothing to something”. Here’s our story:
We sat down in the kopitiam and started talking about how Zone F really gave during their camp offering and everyone felt we weren’t giving our best. We were older, more realistic… Without our allowance and food we wouldn’t have been able to survive…
Then, someone suggested emptying our wallets - that we could survive on cup noodles too! Such a thought would never sit well with our flesh, but something in the spirit pushed us on. Next thing we knew, all our money was on the table. Ming Jian returned with Mee Goreng, soon realizing what we were doing. Even Jason gave, leaving him with a networth of - $3.50 cents, he gave from the five he borrowed earlier! Henry threw in all he had - later figuring out that that was all he had left in his bank.
We quickly left the kopitiam since we weren’t eating (not before staring at Ming Jian while he finished his delicious Mee Goreng). While queuing up for service more joined in. Grace gave whatever was left in her wallet even though it was little, always remember the two mites!
We prayed over the envelope all our money was in, telling God this was our all… There was no next step, no back-up plan.
JO finally reached after army, together with Klemon and Eugene who finished their SOW lesson.
JO and Klemon struggled… It was their entire month’s allowance in their wallet there and then. Their hearts pure and willing, but uncertain. With haste they sat down to pray and think if they would give all they had. They did in the end. JO led… Putting it in with a smile. Ming Jian added in another round and boldly declared “YES, FINALLY I HAVE THE SAME EMPTY-WALLET FEELING AS ALL OF YOU”. Zi Yan gave the little that was left in his too.
Ha ha such faith… If we’re willing God can bring us to the unimaginable…
I bet you through the sermon the thought of the envelope holding all the money popped up in some of our minds. It certainly did in mine. I was excited. Shouldn’t I have been? Charleston began preaching after worship… No offering was collected… Some of us must have harboured thoughts of getting our money back after the service.
Finally at the end of the mind-blowing sermon Charleston started sharing about how he gave his all in order to breakthrough - in order to be grateful. He emptied his bank account, he gave his entire allowance. Smiles sprung up on everyone’s face. Everyone thought “flow”! Second thoughts were vapourized with the faithlessness. We knew that God had brought us here, and He had assured us that we would be blessed manifold more by our small sacrifice.
Klemon had initially kept some to live over the next few weeks… After Charleston shared, he gave it all.
Matthew, who came late, immediately threw every dollar in his wallet into the offering when we told him what was happening (in less than 30 seconds)! What a giver!
I saw it on their faces. They smiled after Jason sealed the envelope and put it into the offering. They stared expectantly as it was passed down the row… Giggles, smiles, faith…
This marks the begginning of radical faith and breakthrough…
It seems crazy and illogical, but we believe we will reap where we have sown.
Our offering, a sweet aroma.
Our lives, a sacrifice…
Luke 9:24
For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it.
God, remember us. Let us please You. Use us, bless us. Let us be desperate, let us be grateful. We love You.
We will live to bess You.
Amen.
THAMBI
June 5, 2009
Aaron Cheong is going overseas!
I’m going to miss him lots! Even though I hardly get to meet him nowadays, I see him lots on the guitar and drums. :P We hardly talk, but whenever we catch up we have a gazillion encounters with God to share with each other about. He is a man of many revelations, I’m proud to have a friend like him! (: His time overseas is like my time in army. We’re both going to emerge stronger and better than ever. God’s work in us will be done. See you real soon bro!!!
smiling
May 11, 2009
SMILE…Faith-filled people smile. It takes a lot of faith to smile.
Pastor How just twittered this! If you’re feeling bad, you better smile! Only then will you have faith… Don’t wait till you’re happy to smile… Remember the only time you need faith is when you need faith. Ha ha ha ha.
Pastors rock!
hold fast to your calling, your real calling.
January 19, 2009
After discipleship class with Pastor it brought back to my perspective my calling. My first calling is to be with Jesus.
For You do not desire sacrifice, or else I would give it;
You do not delight in burnt offering.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
A broken and a contrite heart—
These, O God, You will not despise.
Samuel heard a God he couldn’t perceive. Better than Eli who perceived a God he couldn’t hear. Open my ears, Lord. Life is not an aimless walk. Never. Ever.
the dawn of a new year
January 1, 2009
Charleston just sent us an e-mail and I think it was really powerful.
We’re building the next generation.
“Hold fast to your calling”.
This new year… I’m holding fast to my calling…
UP NEXT!
December 26, 2008
Christmas is over…
It’s really like what Charleston said… Christmas didn’t feel like Christmas this year! It just came and went like that!
Ha ha it’s so amazing!
Pan is bringing revival to his camp. 6 out of 8 people have come already. (:
C1 hit 30! Whoooo, gonna keep on breaking through.
I just spent the night at Jem Tan’s house watching movies and eating JO’s cooked food. Everyone’s still asleep but I’m up. Somehow I’ve been operating on less hours of sleep more and more often. God is increasing my capacity.
This is not the end. I’m going to increase my capacity even more. I believe God can still grow me. Silly thoughts in me tell me I’m not good enough and not ready… But the Holy Spirit tells me to rise up to be what I can be. I will always have my strengths and weaknesses. These things kinda stick with you - but that doesn’t mean there’s no way out. Work on your strengths, work on your weaknesses. To whom much is given much is expected, what came to my mind was the parable of talents. We may not have 10 talents, but what God gives to you - use it - make it fruitful! Don’t ever doubt what you can do… God will make a way!
Yassy’s away in the Philippines till next week! Oh man… Ha ha we just have to rise up more now don’t we?
Once again this verse is resonating with my spirit:
“ Enlarge the place of your tent,
And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings;
Do not spare;
Lengthen your cords,
And strengthen your stakes.
So many things to do and so little time, I’m going to grow an extra brain now. (: More than ever watching how our leadership operates…
Operating at a new level. Thoughts, be further renewed. Spirit stir, for more. Embrace the new year.
